Updated: May 2, 2020
No news is bad news...
So last night I found out that my surgery has been pushed back AGAIN. I (like last time) did not handle the news too well. I really want the surgery. It would be less than a month away if we could stick to the original date, but now it feels like there’s no end in sight. I guess I just feel a bit hopeless. Not much positivity around this virus ending anytime soon, so who knows when I’ll be able to get surgery. This means I’m stuck in braces and pallet expanders, feeling totally uncomfortable for who knows how long! I’ve been sleeping terribly (what else is new) and almost feel like the nasal CPAP is actually making it worse- is this possible? So it’s fair to say that I’m pretty down right now.
I just finished my daily meditation and kept thinking how different this will feel after the surgery. During meditation I am concentrating on my breathe..imagine how much I’ll enjoy meditating when I can actually breathe!
Here’s hoping we get COVID-19 under control ASAP; for so many reasons, this is just one of those personal ones.